I attended this NSTP activity last Sunday. We had to go trekking. We went to Batangas. I was of course with freshmen, or students from batch 2011-2012. I didn’t really now how to feel about how some people think I’m as young as 15 years old when I’m apparently turning 21 this October. My mom always said that I’d be thankful about that one day, somehow I’m starting to be.
Last February 1, my boyfriend and I also had a spontaneous trip to Enchanted Kingdom. Sadly, there were three schools who were having their field trips while we were there so we weren’t able to maximize the ride-all-you-can ticket. It was fun nevertheless. I felt old. Kids were screaming at each other, and they think that they’re just having a conversation, running around, pushing other people who were in their way and not apologizing… I thought, was I ever like that when I was their age. No, I wasn’t. I was a loser back in high school. Yeah, I joined the cheering team, I was an active contestant for the annual poetry and declamation contests, I was a member of the rainbow catering club and the glee club. I was an active student. But, when I wasn’t participating in school activities, I chose to be quiet. Not in a non-talkative way. I was talkative. But I only spoke to a few of my classmates, and the only people who I’d show my silly side to are the ones who I was really close with.
I didn’t like having out at malls, or attending open parties. I would rather ride the school bus going home and sleep after dinner or stay in front of the computer playing video games all through out my Friday night.
I enjoyed life that way.
So, today, I realized, I don’t want to grow up. I want to be able to do the things I love to do without having to worry about what other people would think of me. Just like being a kid, I’d laugh when I want to, cry when I get hurt, get mad when someone irritates me. I wouldn’t limit my actions just because some people judge me for them. I’d continue being me. It seems like no matter what we do or how we try to please people, we’d all me judged anyway. So why not just enjoy life? Live freely and happily?
From now on, that’s what I’m gonna do.
Suck on that!
Watched “Les Miserables” with my boyfriend earlier, I was super excited to catch the film, since my mom (along with my brother and aunts) watched it yesterday without me. So sad. I have this school girl crush on Hugh Jackman :”> So, the movie was awesome. I expected more than what I saw, nevertheless, it was awesome. Compared to other musicals, “Sweeney Todd” is still the best for me. No one can resist Johnny Depp, ever.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately, somehow I feel like I’m under a microscope. Every move being watched, being judged. It sucks, but then that’s how harsh life is sometimes. I can’t deny the fact that I’m extremely happy, but sometimes it gets to me, that my life, particularly, my relationship feels like it’s stuck inside an aquarium where anyone can just poke their little noses and tap the glass whenever they want to.
I’m openly posting about moments and memories I’m making through out my life, especially my love life, but maybe I can still keep a few things to myself? Maybe, just maybe. RANDOM THOUGHT, PEOPLE WILL ALWAYS “LOOK DOWN” ON YOU, NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY NOT TO MESS THINGS UP.
Is it so hard to believe that a relationship can go smoothly?
I can’t wait to start planning for the month ahead. Actually already filled up my planner for things to do this February.
Things just seem to get better and better.
Again, I would like to announce to the world, that I finally found the one I’m going to spend the rest of my life with. I’m dead serious.
So, I wish some people can do me a favor and just get over it?
I’m at school right now, 3D class in particular. Somehow my prof is giving us an easy time because today is just the second meeting. Because of that, I have all the time in the world to do things that aren’t really important like check my Facebook every few minutes, tweet senseless thoughts, check if someone is brave enough to ask me something on ask.fm, and watch an IPL stream.
Even though I’m not someone who has been playing Starcraft for a long time, being able to watch people play either in person or on streams and videos, gives me this really “excited” feeling. HAH. Poser. But I’m serious. It makes me want to learn it sadly, I don’t have a computer that I could use to play it with.
Anyhow, recently I’ve been thinking about getting my priorities straight. I need to start doing something productive with my life, somehow I need to set up a plan for everything. It’s been getting to me, that I’m 20 and I’m still far from graduating, at the same time, I’m stuck in school and I’m not allowed to work yet. Even though a lot of job opportunities have presented themselves, I have a “deal” with my mom that I can’t start working as long as I’m studying because she thinks that once I get my hands on some money I’d leave school. Which is apparently far from what I think would happen. I’d love to work to be able to save up for school, because I feel like I owe my parents a lot for shifting courses therefore delaying my graduation. With that being said, I feel like I should be paying for my schooling now.
Speaking of schooling, school has just started again for me, today is the first day of the last school term. Everything has been going smoothly, thankfully. Not much has changed. I hope this day ends soon because I’ve been wanting to play Ragnarok Online 2 since this morning.
I slept at about 4am even though I had to wake up at 6am for school because I was playing. Ragnarok Online 2 is quite addicting. Even though a lot of things have changed from the Ragnarok Online, it’s still fun. RO2 somehow lies between Dragon Nest and Guildwars. I’m not a big fan of the “using of quests to gain experience” I somehow miss the feeling of “free leveling” where I have to go and hunt tons and tons of monsters to be able to level up, not that I’m complaining. I’ve been playing the game for almost a week already. Well, we’ve been (my boyfriend and I) waiting for the game since the announcement of an OBT last December, and this January 3, it was launched. Although the Philippines isn’t part of the list of servers they put up but because Filipinos have a skill of cheating things, we managed to get pass the blockage and still enjoy the game.
Need to cut things short, we’re dismissed.
It’s amazing how some people tend to always look for an ink blotch on a perfectly white piece of cloth. It seems like no matter how good something is, people will always find a way to say something negative about it. Even if it reaches a point where they themselves do silly things just to stain a perfectly clean slate.
Time goes by real quick, especially when you’re having fun. You tend to enjoy yourself so much that you forget that days have been passing, all you can ever think of is what’s “now”.
With that being said, I didn’t notice that time has flown by and that Cav and I celebrated our third month anniversary together yesterday, January 7. Every seventh of the month, we tend to find a way to make our date more “memorable” than the others that we have had on the other days of the months. I mean, every date is memorable, we just make our date on the “seventh” more “special”? Seven is our number.
For the past two months, we had a trip around Intramuros and we also visited the Philippine National Museum. This January, we were supposed to go to the planetarium but we decided to take a trip to the Mind Museum in Taguig.
It was fun. I was able to feel like a 7-year old kid again. Well, I do feel like a kid most of the time, but it was fun being around things that you can interact with. The museum had 5 galleries and an interactive park. We were greeted by Aedi when we entered the museum. The Mind Museum has a three hour time slot (9pm-12pm, 12pm-3pm, 3pm-6pm, 6pm-9pm *Saturday and Sundays only). You can visit http://themindmuseum.org for more information about the time slots and tickets. In that three hours you get to explore the vicinity your own way, without any tour guides. The museum lets you learn science yourself.
I personally enjoyed my stay in the museum. Especially because I got to experience it’s wonders with the person I love. It was fun being able to entertain ourselves with something more than computer games and food. Being a couple that are “somehow” addicted to gaming, we promise ourselves that at least once or twice a month we do something that would allow us to stop being big dorks, even just for a day.
I love every minute I spend with you, Cav. Whether or not we’re talking about random things, or laughing because of the playful insults we tell one another, you beating me at chess, skypeing for 27 hours straight or even if we’re just sitting next to each other. I can’t wait to spend more and more of those minutes with you. I honestly have never felt this happy, ever. You make everything in this world more fun, more exciting. You’re the person I want to share the biggest adventures with. I love you so much, my Buhnii, to the moon and back.
Thank you for going to places with me, for sharing new experiences and learning with me. Thank you for being you.
I know, I found my soul mate in you :)
My 2012 has been full of drastic ups and downs. It didn’t start well, a lot of people who I trusted, so much, ended up making me feel like I’m the most worthless thing in the world. Like everything I did was just never gonna be right. Even though that was how it was most of the year, there were some highlights as well, my family went to Clark for my aunt’s birthday last January, my best friend since I was in grade one, who went to the states, went home for a visit as well.
The months went by quickly, but suddenly last August, things moved slowly and then awesome happenings started to take place. I went to Cebu for a tournament to represent Manila. I also had a chance to go to Korea to represent the Philippines for an International E-sports Federation tournament. I was also able to get out of the country for the first time this year.
I don’t remember much about my year, maybe because I chose to forget all the negativity that took place.
There was one highlight that I would want to remember forever.
My year would have not been purely positive, but I still count 2012 as MY YEAR. THIS IS MY YEAR.
This year, I met the most awesome guy ever. I posted about him just a few days ago. Cav. Even though I just met him last August, the time I spent with him seem like I’ve known him all my life. It feels amazing.
I’m out of words right now, I feel like everything I want to say about how happy I feel has been poured out onto my last post. Although at the same time I feel like I have to post this.
The past months, from August till December, Cav and I have done a hell lot of things that I can consider as “THE BEST OF 2012”. We went to Avilon Zoo, he met my family, my whole family, then we had a trip around Intramuros, he took me to Singapore with him and we went to The National Museum of the Philippines, and of course there were other dates as well, which all happened in the four months we’ve known each other. I would want to share the biggest highlight of my year and maybe our trip to Singapore would be one of the biggest, and it is, but the most meaningful one was during the Pinoy Gaming Festival.
With reasons I can not blurt out online some I don’t really know, people tend to make false judgement. During those days of the festival, he proved to me that no matter how the world around us moved, we revolved in a certain way, together. That all that mattered was that we were happy, because we were with one another. He gave me a flower that day, a flower that he took from somewhere special :”> AH BASTA, BUHNII ALAM KO NA ALAM MO KUNG BAKIT TO SPECIAL NG SUPER SAKIN.
Cav, thank you, thank you for making my 2012 still my year. Alam ko na alam na alam mo kung bakit super saya ko. Alam ko na alam mo rin kung gaano ako nawalan ng gana nun simula ng taon ko, maraming maraming salamat at dumating ka sa buhay ko, kasi, dahil sayo, nagkaroon ako ng something na i-lolook forward ko. Araw araw ikaw yun isa sa mga pinakamalaking dahilan kung bakit ko pinagpoporsigehan lahat ng ginagawa ko sa buhay ko, ikaw yun dahilan kung bakit ko gusto gumising sa umaga. MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA. I’m sure that 2013 will not just be MY YEAR, but it will be OUR YEAR. The first of many more years to come. I wish you were here with me right now, but I know someday I’ll get to greet a new year with you. I promise you that I will never leave your side, and that we’ll take 2013 and the other years to come by a storm.
Happy, happy new year! 2013, you are ours.
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When I’m in a bad mood, I stuff my face with food till I get full and sleepy. But then recently, someone lifts me up every single time I slip into a bad mood. So, just being able to have a short time talking to him or even just a simple hug from him makes me feel better instantly.
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